And yet, putting all my motherly failures aside, this newly-turned one-year-old is my sweetest baby so far and gazes at me with such devotion that, regardless of what I'm busy {stressed} with at the moment, my heart can't help but melt whenever I see that constantly smiling face. As long as he is fed and rested, he is simply content to just enjoy life whether that means sitting on my lap, watching his brothers, or investigating a discarded pile of duplo blocks.
He has always been Mr. Extroverted around here - a social butterfly, cooing and smiling at complete strangers at a young age - but now that he is one and his personality has really come out, my goodness, he is just so fun!
So while there are some moments this first year of my third son's life that I'd prefer to simply forget, there have been many moments that, when I look back on him at one of my favorite ages, twelve months old, I want to hold the memories of these moments close to my heart for the rest of my life.
- His little head popping up and down to play peek-a-boo with me through the side door window.
- The way he cannot resist a smile, even when he's crying, if I say his name in a sing-song voice.
- His fluff of coarse dark hair at the back of his head that simply doesn't grow out.
- His little hand clutching at my locket {which hold my mom's photo of course} every time we nurse.
- Seeing his sweet face at the top of the basement stairs, waiting patiently, every time I go down to do the laundry.
- The feeling of nursing him to sleep and simply holding him in my arms while my other two boys are still napping.
- His chubby double chin.
- The way he greets my husband at the door upon his arrival home from work.
- His little face peeking out at me through the window in the early morning when I go outside to feed the chickens.
- The feeling of my arm going numb when he falls asleep on my lap because his head is just so heavy.
- His contagious giggle.
- His love for any food as long as I add cinnamon.
- The way he clutches his fingers together and holds his hand out, facing up, to wave "hello"!
- His lifelong hatred of baths.
- His chubby arm raise when we play "so big!" while getting dressed.
- The pitter-patter/swish-swish sound it makes when he crawls around our little home.
- His squeals whenever we lay on my bed because it always means one of two things: time to nurse with mom or time to wrestle with dad.
- His love for my sister who drives an hour to visit us for the day at least once a week.
- The feeling of his sweaty, mushy body curled up next to me when I nurse him in bed.
- The way he follows his older brothers, back and forth, from their bedroom to the living room, usually reaching his destination just as they are leaving it.
Becoming a mother has made it even more apparent to me that children are truly the greatest gift from God. I know there are many who think my husband and I are a little crazy for having 'so many children so close together' but I absolutely cannot imagine life without our sweet baby boy. He brings so much joy to our family on a daily basis. The sweetness of his disposition makes it a humbling thought indeed to consider that God chose imperfect little ol' me to be his mother and I pray for the grace to raise him to be a holy man of the Lord every day.
